♥ Reaching for the stars.

BEWARE.

2011-11-09T00:12:00.003+08:00

I AM BACK.

But.

It's half past twelve in the AM, i need to sleep before transforming into a walking zombie.

Byee, blog tomorrow!

♥The Incomparable.

2010-05-08T08:11:00.004+08:00

No matter how long those times had passed, the memories will be painted in my heart, always. :)

Our dearest yen a.k.a jiao is going to move into the hostel real soon, which is next Monday. We planned to have a stay over at huey's house yesterday night, apparently our plan failed. =.= Blame San & Yen.

You're right my dear, it's better if we didn't have a gathering yesterday, now that you're moving into the hostel seem like a big impact to me. Lol... i know this sounds funny but i know i'm going to miss her real bad after she starts her college life. Seee, i said i will miss you, be satisfied :) I asked her whether we can help her to move things into her hostel, she gave me a stupid expression like i' m asking a stupid question. I'm serious okay.

All the best to you my dear. Don't forget me else you beware.

Hmm... yesterday was another dramatic day. Ms Kang and i sat at the bench for an hour plus*around that..?* waiting our ah Huey to finish her class. There was a heavy rain yesterday and it did ruin our mood a little but luckily we had fun.

Forget to mention, last week i drove San's car all the way from The Gardens back to Serdang, this time i drove XianVoon's car all the way from Sri Petaling back to Serdang! Mommy, i can drive well ok. I want to drive to college so badly!

Talked to some friends yesterday & they said i'm being too introvert to my college friends? They said Ms Kang and i always live in our own world & don't really mix with others. T.T Sad to hear that but more sad to agree that it's true... We should sort out of some ways to change. =.=

Time is gold, appreciate. :)

It's May already! Time passes too fast. Semester exam is around the corner & i haven't touch any books yet. How great. I don't have feelings to study now, have no idea why but i feel to have fun & slacking around.

I hate to stay in the past, but i don't like to get into a new world. Self-conflict. ==
Time to change?

Hello!

2010-04-27T16:24:00.003+08:00

Click the ''Play'' button, will nvr regret :)

Been addicted to ClaraC's voice and Jay Park. Hehe. Oh Ms. Kang, this video is one with a proper MV.

We dissected a cow's heart today. Scary! The smell was so disgusting. Hmpph, nowadays i'm so outdated. I must msg more often, msn more often. Okk just crapping, just want to update my blog with stuffs. Gtg now, moral time. :)

Have a nice day everyone!

I'm happy & contented...

2010-04-01T21:24:00.006+08:00

Super Show 2!:)

Suddenly think of the date mummy and i had.

I love pasta, very very much. =.=

the presentation i mentioned in the previous post.

We got a 2hours break today! :) which is a very very rare thing for us. We were like.. totally blank when we suddenly got what we always dream for. A whole bunch of free time. lol. While we're wandering around the college compound thinking about our plan, we met Tan Zhi Huey! :D Asked her to join us for lunch. On the way, we met Low Yeong Yih! Asked him to come along.. Then received a call from Lew Ze Khan, ajak him to makan together. Tze Yee, Yi Chin, Sze Ling came after that. :D :D Many people eyh. Was laughing for the whole 2 hours break, which is a thing that's very different compared to all the other breaks i had @ taylors.

Ok i know i typed too much of crap.

Gossiped a lot with Ms. Kang in the tent @ taylors too.

Might be going to Genting with Huey during the semester break! :D If huey's going lar. Hehe

Going to Seoul Garden after class tomorrow. :)

I'm happy happy. Despite i got a stupid results for physics quiz. :)

♥Good night everyone!

Tried my best to recall everything.
Will add in the others if i remember. :)

Seeking what i want ..

Hihi :)

2010-03-25T16:06:00.003+08:00

Hihi everyone! :) Since today is a free from homework & quiz day, decided come to blog while waiting mommy's car to be fixed @ the bmw workshop.

Hmm wondering why i'm so free today? Hehe. Mr Seo, the physic lecturer went to err..meeting*that's what he said i think* , so we have a 1hour free period. Then we had a course evaluation in the Web, another half hour free. Till the last period.. Biology, i thought Ms.Lena was going to teach as usual. But when she came in, she gave us a mission..prepare a presentation about the topic she assigned us. What we have to do is just draw everything inside a Mahjong paper & stick it to the wall. HEHEHE. I enjoyed much. Tho' Ms Lena said it's too cartoon-ish , but that's our group's style i think.

Thus, we just had maths and chemistry for today. :) I can watch youtube tonight! Yay. Haha.

Heard that newbies will have their first practice this Sat? Hehe. Might be going back to pay them a visit. I miss all the juniors so much.

Oh, Ms Kang bought her new phone. It's white...and it's nice. NOOO i'm not jealous at all.... fine. I'm jealous. :) But all her belongings are mine too, thus .. benefits me too. Lol.

I'm so sleepy now.. mommy wants to go saloon l8r some more. Aik.

That's all for today i think. Simple and nice. Hehe. Byee :)

I don't care about kiasu aka no life ppl. I'll enjoy every moments of my life, unlike them.

Slow Dance.

2010-03-19T22:50:00.006+08:00

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?

Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?

Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.

Don't dance so fast

Time is short.

The music won't last

Do you run through each day
On the fly?

When you ask How are you?

Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done

Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down

Don't dance so fast

Time is short.

The music won't last.

Ever told your child,

We'll do it tomorrow?

And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch
Let a good friendship die

Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.

Don't dance so fast.

Time is short.

The music won't last

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,

It is like an unopened gift...
Thrown away

Life is not a race

Do take it slower

Hear the music

Before the song is over.

From a forwarded email. Meaningful eyh? :)

Move on, move on...

2010-03-19T21:41:00.019+08:00

Had lunch with zh, stayed back a while for TKS assignment's discussion , felt anxious and excited about tomorrow, headache about assignments and biology and physics chap..

These basically made my whole day.
ohh by the way, am still feeling VERY excited. It all started when i received Yen Yeen's message as she told me she bought me a blue light stick. :)

HMM.
am not really happy this few days. As what i mentioned in the previous post, I've absolutely zero idea about my future. Blank. Unlike most people in my class, i'm sure i don't want to be a doctor. Talked to mommy about it, she asked me to decide on my own. Which is... no conclusion again. So i think, think, think again.... Might be going to Singapore? If not, have to join my cousin in Australia. Which i totally don't wish to.. It's very very far.. :'(

Plus, haven't started to apply scholarship. Nine out of ten. What scholarship can i apply for? Definitely JPA is out.But..what's others? Argh.

Had a little conflict with mommy and brothers just now. I'm so sorry for being rude. I just dislike the way you talk to me. As if i'm going to college everyday doing nothing. I'm really stressed out due to piles of homeworks and assignments.. and lecturers' nagging. "Score well in your AS, if not you'll sure regret" "It's just few months and i can see that you all are slacking already" Blah, blah, blah. When i reached the doorstep, all i get is... " Girl, help me to do...." " Jie, help me with that...i' m busy playing games." and after that...

"Why are you so free? No homework har "

Funny isn't it? Surrounded by all kinds of nagging.

I know i'm very long-winded. Please bear with me lah kay. As i seldom badmouth about my family. But after all, i still love them very much. :) But mommy and daddy, in your haste, you didn't care about my feelings.

Friends come and go, only the good ones will stay forever. This i know. But i' m really upset about what had happened. I feel like.. I'm the only one who care. Then at the end, i' m the only one being truly, very disappointed. Oh perhaps nian too. :) Never mind, we'll get over it very soon. Am getting happier with my college life. But i still prefer high school more, as always.

Ever lost touch,
let a friendship die?
Cause you never had time
to call and say, 'Hi'
You'd better slow down
Dont dance too fast
Time is short
The music won't last

Loves, Sze.

Where the road diverges,

2010-03-14T13:32:00.003+08:00

I'm so lost now. Parents asked about my future planning.

Where i want to study,

WHAT I WANT TO STUDY.

i don't know...
The SPM result is almost like a useless thing to me now.

Which uni is better, what course is better. i don't know. I just enrolled in Alevels without any second thoughts.

Sit down and think,
Is chemist still my first choice..

T.T

Simple and nice :)

2010-03-09T22:13:00.006+08:00

happy birthday, mei.
wish you become more & more man-ish, and... get your so-called miss gorgeous back alright. :D
we love you!

Hmm.. 2days left until the results day. Not really exciting about it, duh i wonder who will be. =.= I can predict that my result will be pretty awful as i don't really worked hard. But still, i pray hard that it'll at least....at least be moderate huh. Pls don't let my nightmare turns to be the truth..I'll kill myself.

Went out with San & Daddy last Saturday. Am really delighted. :) It feels like we have never changed, never been through those partings, still close as a family. We talked about...everything. lol no joke. I mean, everything. I guess, that's the definition of besties? :) We share everything. Too bad Yen & Huey can't make it, if not it'll be perfect.

Hmm. Need to sleep now. Good night, and sweet dream , everyone.
Loves. :)

Friendship never ends.

2010-03-06T08:10:00.007+08:00

I've no idea why i'm awake at this early hour. lol.. but i just feel like blogging.

I hate the weather of this few months. It can be very very hot, & suddenly a heavy rain pour came. Hmm, so yesterday was a boring day, as usual. We spent our break with the lax, he always has endlessly jokes to entertain us. Oh but his face expression itself is a joke already. =.=

Class ended at 1, group discussion ended at 1.20. I was so happy and rushed down to meet lax and ah nian. Do you know what were they doing?

No idea?

lax was looking at L's fb profile, a boy that was once so into me.
& they both were discussing together. Seriously i'm going to jump down from a building like Mr.Seo's ex , seems like wherever i go i'll hear his name. GREAT. Know what Ms.Kang said? There's one time a guy was calling my name and she heard it, she said she was so afraid, she thought that guy was L. !@#$%%. Some more she is having illusion now, as long as she hears my name related to a guy, it must be L, she thinks so.

What an awesome friend she is huh?
So you can't blame me for saying that you met your ideal man right.
Hehe

College is getting fun.. Classes with Kok & Song are full of laughter. lol Breaks with exChs-ians are great too. I'm learning how to enjoy college life..

S4 gathering next Sat! Looking forward. Jimui gathering tonight! Wonderful. Not forgetting..

SPM result next Thurs, Physics/Bio/Chem tests next next week.
FANTASTIC.

I guess, life is just simple like that. In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.

People come, people go – they’ll drift in and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past.

fading faith.

2010-02-27T09:50:00.006+08:00

i'm tired...

physically, mentally, emotionally.

no matter how crazy and funny the scenes around you, it is useless without the person you want to laugh with..

paint ur dreams in bright colors and bold stripes

where ever you go, go with all your heart

Life is simple, you make a choice and don’t look back

i just realized that,
my college life is never mentioned in my blog.

college life is hectic.
had maths evaluation and bio test on Thursday, & made me unhappier than before.

sometimes, it's not that i cant do better,
but...
the more i wanted to, the more i made mistake.

perhaps, i shouldn't be so tense.
i take other people's point of view too seriously, as always.
the decisions i make are always based on the judgments of people.
and so, i can't decide well, and see things correctly.

and i don't get what i wished to.

...

Chinese new year is over?
Sigh, tomorrow's the last day already.
No difference for me actually, as my holiday is already over for...a week i think?

By the way, i drove to Jusco yesterday!
yes me! Helped mummy to buy groceries and ingredients for steamboat yesterday.
@.@ disaster man, i still feel funny when i think of daddy's face.
hahaha

Ohhh, before i forget,
coincidentally the other half *Kang Wei Nian and i wore the same color for almost the whole week.
hahahahaha. We're getting more & more "twins-like"? =.=
Mommy even reminds me to pass her Angpow later.
Yes mind me, i'm going to see her later, AGAIN. I see her for almost everyday. Haaha

&... Hmm.
Should I go SuperJunior's concert?
Have been asking Nian the same ques this few days.
I can see that she feels like slapping me already. =\

Will finish up my homeworks today. So i can have fun tmr.
Fun, as in watching Tv, YouTube, Surf TVXQ..
to conclude is being lifeless.
haha. i enjoy not using brain during weekend.

So..i'll stop here aite.

Pictures we snapped the other day in a korean shop nearby Taylors.
!@#@#%#^ expensive!

♥

to my dears,

2010-02-22T21:23:00.004+08:00

firstly,

happy birthday to you ,
happy birthday to you ,
happy birthday to ku @ emily wong yien san,
happy birthday to you !

♥

there's many to say,
until...i don't know how to start my words.

so let's make it short,
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR:)
thanks for brighten up my high sch life.

i'll be there for you as always aite.
stay sweet wit matt aka daddy,
just promise that you wont forget us sisters okay.

♥♥♥
(huey missing in action)

and,

vinshen tham left to taiwan this afternoon.

once we worked hard for society stuffs,
painting banners,
joined camps,
...

...
speechless
okay i'm so so emo now.

why is everyone leaving??!!!

take care & all the best aite!

much ♥s, don't forget us.

gd'bye.
partings are so damn stupid.

Happy Cny!

2010-02-21T23:41:00.008+08:00

Furbie greets everyone a happy prosperous tiger year :D

i know i'm superduper late, but still
happy chinese new year everyone! :)

today is the ninth day of cny, the pray ''tin gong'' day.
while waiting the clock to strike 12,
i sneaked up to blog. hehe better than wasting time right?

i always love chinese new year atmosphere.
relatives rushing back to hometown for reunion dinner and stuffs,
so heartwarming.

some random pictures snapped:

mommy loves decorating ,
that's why we always have the mood for any festivals.

totti says hi!

everyone's busy helping out,

on the way back to grandpa's house,

-

there 's times you feel that the whole world left you out,
and the only you can think of is just escape,
escape out of this messy world.

perhaps, the pasts are destined to be the pasts.
never try to move the pasts to the presents,
all you'll get is only disappointment.

so all the best everyone,
let's move on to the future,
who knows what will be welcoming us.
again, happy cny. :)

Nothing in this world is worth having if it comes too easy.

2010-01-10T19:56:00.007+08:00

:(!

stop telling me which course is better compared to alvls or the disadvantages of it.

yea. telling me which course is so awesome n wonderful & how good it is.

what for.

if i'm rude enough, i would just shout out.

HELLO THIS IS MY LIFE. MINE.

but of course, i'm not.

that s why i'm here blogging instead of quarreling with ppl.

i mean,

everybody has their own perspective for the future,

i haven't even started my class

& u splashed a pail of cold water to me.

i know,

some of you are really just concerning and worried that i made the wrong decision.

it s really sweet of you.

but..

give me a break.

let me give it a try.

i think...everything will still be perfect as long as i tried my best in everything.

i know it's not easy,

i will study hard. & play hard too! :)

A positive attitude may not solve all of your problems

but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort :)

it is not easy..

when you already feel very lost

& have totally no idea about what s waiting you in the future.

meanwhile, you have to explain over and over again

to convince them that i'm actually making the right choice.

hmphhhh.

i paid my fees for the first semester

i don't see any good turning back, looking at the past.

let's look forward,

have faith in me.

maybe i can do it, maybe.

this time, i can't fail..... :(

Most of us ask for advice when we know the answer already but we want another one.

Life is like a party. Full of suprises.

2010-01-08T08:49:00.003+08:00

♥True friends are stain resistant, you can spill anything on them.

nian call us, the girlfriends.

we went out yesterday.

we watched AVATAR.

we stayed at starbucks for 1hours talking about everything in life.

we walked around & ended up bought nothing.

i hope nian's father will still have good impression in me,

tho' i have a lil doubt on that.

haha.

lol nobody will thought of us linking together.

sometimes,

things are destined.

best friends are destined to meet each other.

and i, believe in destiny.

ohhh. and i found a quote.

which i think it suits nian and i very well :D

We're all a little weird.

And life's a little weird.
And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours,

we joinup in mutual weirdness and people call us besties.

haha. Orientation day is on next tuesday.

excited. nervous. complicated.

=.=

omg, im eighteen already! (;

2010-01-06T22:01:00.005+08:00

helloh ppl!

okay, i've been thinking what to blog about for the whole day.

hmm so,

decided to be nostalgic!

(;

LIFE BEFORE SPM.

everyday nerding.
read read read read &..
still read.

ohh, & memorize!

hmph.pathetic? no, not really (:

this is me when im bored. haha

who cares if u camwhore everyday when u re seventeen huh?!

okay, im sad that im eighteen now.

ta-daaaah!

this is our dearest chemistry tuition teacher!

big big thank you to him.

without him, we can die with chemistry books together.

okay.

she might seem very serious.

but, trust me,

she's just pretending.

ewww my hair..

heh. but who cares.

this is the way i should be when i'm preparing spm.

heh :)

S4.

the last time v came, we ordered the exactly same food.

for this time, we wore the same shirt.

hehe ;)

our height are almost the same...

oh okay,

maybe Jolee is a lil different from us,

she's taller.

love u all. :)

fangyin, goodluck in ur law studies yeap!

look! it s ur turn now furbie! :)

he's fur-less before spm.

we sent him to the dog saloon,

& he came back like this...

ohh, and with teary eyes too.

ok. he's good at acting cute. :)

you seeeeee.

acting kesian again!

hahaha.

last but not least.....

let me let this cute lil thing to make a perfect ending for my post!

;)

the 6th day of twenty ten.

so far...

so good?

hmm..going out with two ah girl tmr.

it'll be fun?

yes it will sure be.

nights.

& lots loves,

sze.

Nothing improves the memory more than trying to forget.

2009-12-31T13:17:00.004+08:00

the last day of 2009.
...

went back to school to see the kids' perform yesterday.
unluckily, !@#@$@% happened.
eesh. i left chs, i left the society.
what were happening is no longer my business okay.
to the one who should be blamed,
no you dont have to feel lucky, you didn't escape from it,
it's your turn someday. (;

hmm but it s okay, this didnt ruin my mood :)
went KLCC with the kids after that.
tiring? yes, very. enjoyed? yes, i did. :)
i missed them so much. finally, i got to see everyone of you like after 10years.
but, i spent most of the time in Kinokuniya bookshop, while the others went to the playground.
i can never resist the temptation of books.
mags, novels... books spree. :D

hmmph. suprisingly, i have not much feelings about today.
why?
i have too much regrets for 2009, so much things that i can't accomplish.
yes this is why. :)
i'm looking forward for 2010 to come :)

i wonder, did i make any mistake in 2009 ah?
yes la, for sure. =.=
A person who never makes mistakes never makes anything.
haha so, forgive my mistakes.

college life - taylors college.
here i come.
a brand new year, a whole new environment.
let s hope, it'll be fun ? :)

life goes on.
before i stop,
shall say my goodbyes to all the precious ones...
bye catholic high,
bye school mates,
bye 5S4,
bye pbc,
bye drummers,
bye sweet seventeen,
bye....everything.

bye 2009,
hello 2010.

wheeeee! :D

i can' wait, i want to know how it feels like if u have no regrets.
try ur best, do ur best &...
smile with no regrets. :D

Where there is great love, there are always wishes.
i love love u guys, so..
best wishes,
JaySze. :)
cheers!

I’m walking around your mind,
coz i dont know where I stand..

• Better to light a candle than to curse the darkness. (:

2009-12-28T18:59:00.013+08:00

"are you okay?"

"yes i am. "

i replied for gazillion times.

everyone's unhappy, i don't want to make them worry more. :)

the class trip is awesome,

and unforgettable.

love everyone of you

for not ditching nian and i , and let us mixed around with the gang.

the sad news is,

wayne left, to Canada.

few days after the class trip.

everyone seem so gloomy,
isit a fact that we will sure separate when everything had comes to an end..?
if yes, i pray hard now.

i don't want the day to come so fast..

hmm am being really emotional recently,
after class trip.
it ended too fast..

5S4&S3 's class trip,

best trip ever.

*

everything happened were out of my expectation.
i thought, life after spm should be very relaxing and fun.
no more nerding & stressing.

but i feel so much more stress after spm.

it was fun! but not relaxing. ):

too many things happened,

just can't digest it in a sudden..

so many diverged roads in front,

which should i choose?

i added a heavy burden to my family because of my further studies.

yes i dont feel good.

seriously don't.

many decisions are waiting to be made..

by my own.

time to grow up?

be independent,

sometimes,

i really hope that i can contribute a lil something for my family too.):

sometimes, i just dont know how to say my thinking out.

i mean, not exactly as what im thinking in my mind.

if tears can be used to solve problems,

lol then im sure very relax now already.

nothing to worry,

no doubt im very good in doing that.

=.=

life will go on in it’s own way no matter how hard you try to change it.

So save your energy and see where you end up.

i will be okay soon.

pray hard for me eh (:

mm i'm having serious mood swings recently.

it s not a good thing,

to everybody.

=.=

will college life be awesome?

it will be...

IT HAS TO BE.

2010 will be a wonderful year.

it will be...

IT HAS TO BE.

loves,

sze.

no im not okay.

yes i am okay!

i am !